From Leia's Beautiful Mind

My friends and I have been talking about "the past" these past two days and so I decided to write about it. There is a song that echoes in my head called "The Past" by Ray Parker Jr. with lyrics that goes like this: "I was wrong when I hurt you   But did you have to hurt me too Did you think revenge will make it better?   I don't care about the past   I just want our love to last   There's a way to bring us back together" Now let me dissect this stanza. Boy, how I wish a certain someone would have said this line to me. I don't know if I will ever get an apology from such person. Anyway, that is not the point.  While I agree that revenge will not make it better, I think it is presumptuous to say that there is a way to bring back "together" what has already been damaged. For love to last, it takes two mature individuals willing to make love work... and love IS work.   For some people, there is indeed a way to bring themse

I dedicate this poem to all the girls who once shone so brightly and now feels like they have lost their light. Remember though, that once a star, always a star. We will be reborn in the womb of the Goddess and shine brightly as ever. She was a star She was Hydra herself. Until he wished upon her And she fell from the sky. He took her on a roller coaster ride, Created their own private world. Confined in a euphoric standstill Sweet intoxication - she's wasted, it's painful and most beautiful Under the May full moon. He kisses her against the wall before the clock turned twelve She's trapped in those arms that promised forever. It was an excruciating fall when he chose to let go. Blinded by counterfeit lights Watching fragments of kaleidoscopes of pseudo rainbows In his artificial world. She slowly opened her eyes Saw that there are other celluloid stars sprinkled in the diamond sky tonight She was Hydra, the brightest Yet the most solitary one. Her light diminished, She j

Another poem I wrote. Limpid pools of almond eyes Staring straight into my soul and reading my mind. Seeing what lies beneath Waiting for things that are hidden to unravel. Darn those almond eyes which turn my knees to jelly As they bore into mine Everything seems to be all right. My heart skips a beat each time you do that If only I could wipe those tears you shed for her If only I could take away your pain. To see those eyes smile again. When you look at me, is it really me that you see? Or remnants of her that you wish I would be... But when you look at me with the saddest of eyes, I know that there is no room for lies. Let me be the one to quiet the waves, Lift you above them for I am your friend. But when I'm all alone, All I can think of are almond eyes. - from Leia's beautiful mind 04/07/13

If only this was a perfect world, you and I would be together.  We would have made plans and talk about forever.  It would have been your coffee I fix in the morning,  and curl in bed watching our favorite movies til the ending.  But the world is not perfect -and still won't be last time I checked.  So here we are apart,  though it had always been you from the start.  Now we pass by and politely nod at each other,  and there's always that bittersweet pain in the chest that gathers.  -from Leia's beautiful mind 03/10/13

Will time make me forget?  The way I thought that smile was reserved for me,  how I used to run my fingers through your hair as you sleep.  Those simple joys of waking up to prepare your favorite dish,  and hearing you say you're building a castle for me. If time could not make me forget,  you have to help me, dear, teach me to forget  like how you've forgotten about me. 02/13/13

I wish to be free from the wings of unrequited love that has cradled me so.... I have waited for you for several lifetimes Yet still you don't see, still you do not recognize me. Awaken from your slumber, dear, and for once, see me. The next life is too long to wait... I do not wish to be reborn only for you to drive a stake through my heart again and again.   -from Leia's Beautiful Mind 02/24/13